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You were the first to give me a thorough interview at a time when it was clear that there was some sort of directive to block the story and I was being actively intimidated. For that, you are a champion. And there are some people who should feel ashamed that they ghosted me prior to that.

For three months I slept two hours a day and would remain awake while Amanda slept. I wound up pretty sick and still haven't felt fully recovered. But I think our interview was the turning point and I was so glad to see you pull a really good clip out and post it up front because I think it gave a lot of viewers a better understanding of the real issue in the data (which is still being blotted out).

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Dec 30, 2022·edited Dec 30, 2022Author

I am so glad I interviewed you!!! I felt like you had made important discoveries, and the world needed to hear what you had to say!! I am also glad it had a good effect! You deserved the good effect. And trust me, it took me a minute to understand the plot of your discovery :), but once I did, I made it a point to try and spell it out in the clearest terms in editing because I felt like it was important enough to go over it step by step and try to make it clear.

I admire your willingness to put yourself out there, and I can very much relate to your intellectual curiosity about things. And I hope that this entire thing is resolved in favor of honor and truth!!!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Tessa you are a really good interpreter. And thanks for always reminding us that "spiritual" is a word for things we cannot touch or feel, but exists just as does my kitchen table.

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Dec 30, 2022·edited Dec 30, 2022Author

Thank you, Duchess!! And I love your metaphor!! I also use "table" sometimes in describing how physical things are, and it made me smile with joy.

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Dec 30, 2022·edited Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

..."spiritual" is a word for things we cannot touch or feel, but exists just as does my kitchen table."

So true. But the arc of post-enlightenment rationalism and reductionism has pretty much excised that awareness from modern thought. We have suffered and accepted an enormous amputation of being. If something cannot be weighed, measured, compared, quantified, parameterized, rendered as a mathematical equation or column or row in a spreadsheet then we simply don't allow it in to our mental mind maps. The unfortunate and tragic result is a society made up of hollow people who nevertheless have enormous appetites and a universal blindness to the damage caused.

Here are a few punchy quotes I like from Wendell Berry:

1)“To define knowledge as merely empirical is to limit one's ability to know; it enfeebles one's ability to feel and think.”

2)“Beauty . . . cannot be interpreted. It is not an empirically verifiable fact; it is not a quantity.”

3)“The walls of the rational, empirical world are famously porous. What come through are dreams, imaginings, inspirations, visions, revelations. There is no use in stooping over these with a magnifying lens.”

4)“I think that the poet and scholar Kathleen Raine was correct in reminding us that life, like holiness, can be known only by being experienced. To experience it is not to "figure it out" or even to understand it, but to suffer it and rejoice in it as it is. In suffering it and rejoicing it as it is, we know that we do not and cannot understand it completely. We know, moreover, that we do not wish to have it appropriated by somebody's claim to have understood it. Though we have life, it is beyond us. We do not know how we have it, or why. We do not know what is going to happen to it, or to us. It is not predictable; though we can destroy it, we cannot make it. It cannot, except by reduction and the grave risk of damage, be controlled. It is, as Blake said, holy. To think otherwise is to enslave life, and to make, not humanity, but a few humans its predictably inept masters.”

― Wendell Berry, Life is a Miracle : An Essay Against Modern Superstition

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Matthew, .I am so sorry for what you go through because I know that you must feel so alone sometimes, because us idiots (myself included) cannot understand what you can at your level. But some of us (myself included) trust you implicity, even when we cannot comprehend even 1/3 of your always superb explanations of how you arrive at things. We do get how awful it feels to have been excluded from the panel and beleive me, we are angry as hell FOR you. But try and remember probably 98% of us are not as intelligent as you: As the saying goes "never try and teach a pig to sing. It is a waste of your time, and only annoys the pig."

Try not to make yourself sick over something you cannot change.., just know.you are desperately needed, and will be far into the future.

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But pigs sing so beautifully. I wish I had that talent.

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LOL. Personally, I like pigs. They are very intelligent animals, and they get a bad rep while in fact, not being dirty or anything like that.

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

My understanding is that pigs are as smart, if not smarter, than most dog breeds!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

You and me both Matthew. I can't carry a tune in a bucket! My next life I want

to come back as a singer!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Do you remember that scene from "Deliverance"?

Deliverance - "Squeal Like A Pig"

https://youtu.be/LtAkf0UMeLA

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Dec 31, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

I would rather not. 🤣

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I have been targeted most of my life and know how they blame others for their ills. I was hoping for truth to be seen after the plandemic exploded on the scene....so obvious....

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This is beautiful and eloquent and I hope the world reads it. 🙏🏼

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Thank you Sarah!! xoxo

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Thank you for such a lovely read! I was working on a piece and had just come to a stopping place last night when I read your article. It was serendipitous I suppose, as I was chewing over similar fare. Anyway...I just finished mine up and thought I'd leave it here.

https://conspiracysarah.substack.com/p/a-little-snark-a-little-salt-and?sd=pf

Cheers!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

"In marketing, certain types of ‘content” and emotional hooks are known to work like a charm, almost every time. Work well for what? Work well for collecting “likes,” followers, email addresses, and so on. Not so much for healing the world—but the goal of marketing is not to heal the world, only to create and grow attachment to the brand."

- I'm an ethical marketer. I could be very rich by now, but I won't sell out.

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Good for you!! Hopefully life sends you riches of the best kind for you!! xoxo

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Thanks Tessa. Happy New Year!

I wish I could tell you all of my plans, I really do.

If I start to pull them off, I'll let you know what I'm up to. Maybe you can interview me. 🙂 2023 may be the year we finally get started. All we need is a bit of a capital injection. If we REALLY get started, we might change the world. Think the anti-WEF. All it needs is someone with money and the balls to put it into motion.

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I've noticed that a bunch of us have at least a little background in marketing. Perhaps why we were more able to see through the BS?

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An excellent point!!!

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Hey SC, Happy New Year.

Agreed, marketing and advertising have zero effect on me. I'm broadly immune from propaganda in general because I know exactly how the sausage is made (not that I've ever made propaganda (or sausages) but it's hilarious that the word for marketing in (at least South American) Spanish is "propaganda"). Good point.

I'm probably a unique nutcase because I regard everything as a "tool" (even money). I'm not interested in just about anything unless I have a practical requirement for something.

I also enjoy "experimenting" on myself for various reasons (spiritual growth, learning things, getting fitter and stronger for example), so any money I do "waste" normally is for practical purposes as well, even if those purposes are pretty weird by most normal people's standards.

I'm also a conspiracy theorist and have known about UN Agenda 2021 and 2030 for a long time. It took me quite a long time to get to the bottom of what the "scam" behind Covid was. I knew it was BS but as an "evidence based conspiracy theorist", for several months all I was getting was noise ("it's just the flu bro", "Covid doesn't exist", "it's the 5G I tells ya".

Fortunately, Dr. Mike Yeadon came along and I was on firm footing again. It was an incredible experience to hear someone who clearly didn't know about "NWO conspiracy theories" describe "NWO conspiracy theories" in layman's terms. I'm delighted to have been able to thank him personally for his work, both on here and on the site formerly known as Lockdown Sceptics.

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"I'm probably a unique nutcase because I regard everything as a "tool" (even money)."

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Interesting, I feel exactly the same way! Money is only a positive as long as it's useful. If you chase money for its own sake, well, we know what love of money is!

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Dec 30, 2022·edited Dec 30, 2022

Agree 100%. Glad to know a fellow nutter. 😂

I just remembered after writing my previous comment that I started to write a series of satirical shitposts on 4Chan based on "it's just the flu bro", "Covid doesn't exist", "it's the 5G I tells ya". I forgot about "you have a greater chance of dying from X". Those were the days, I guess.

Thank God for the 4Chan archive, I found my favorite one, about Kim Jung-un maybe dying.

>It's just a fat dictator, bro.

> Literal nothingburger.

> Everyone knows Kim Jung-un is a CGI hoax. He literally doesn't exist.

> Holy fuck dude, Kim just got a 5G phone!!! It's the 5G!!! Aaaaarrggghhh!!!

> Tripping over in the garden on the way to collect the morning newspaper kills more people every year than North Korean nukes. Worrying about North Korean nukes is literally retarded.

> New Bonus Retardation Level! (((Kim Jung-un)))).

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This reminds of the scene in the new X-files where Mulder meets with "Conspiracy Man" out in public, where he's informed that the conspiracies no longer need to be hidden because there's much 'crazy' out there in the first place. "Hiding in plain sight."

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Mulder: I'm telling you Scully, the government is trying to kill everyone! They just injected billions of people with weaponized nanotechnology death sauce to cull and control the population!

Scully: Urgh. Everyone knows that Fox. Now let's go get some pizza and arrest some protesters dressed as Vikings so we can throw them in the gulag....

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Hi baboon,

On reading you, I realized my similar situation. I've been a public speaking instructor, coach, and judge for several decades in Japan ... and it took me a while to realize I was at odds with most would-be 'kings of the mountain', and with most coaches or teachers for that matter. It helped me distinguish 'educator' from 'instructor'.

Cheers!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

"educator' from 'instructor'"

Hey mate, cheers to you too!

Hmmm. A profound difference for sure. I'm reminded of the difference between trekking through the Himalaya and doing hardcore climbing. An "educator" teaches you, an "instructor" is probably more "demanding" but I think there's another step up from there, "enforcer" perhaps?

The more life-threatening the situation, the harsher you need to be with your pupils, that's for sure.

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Harsher ... sometimes.

Case-by-case.

But 'invisible' and 'empowering' are also options.

Cheers baboon!

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Thank you for continually serving as a beacon of love, light, and truth, Tessa ☀️💗🙌

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Thank you, dear Margaret Anna!!

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Wow ... a two-fer — now 2/3 of my paying subscriptions.

Cheers Margaret!

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Dec 30, 2022·edited Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Good read Tessa.

I recognize where some of it is coming from, and it verifies my admiration for the unwavering moral character behind your insights and the forms in which you express them.

I'll be back with you soon in discussions (or my own essay) regarding the relationship between emerging A.I., 'uniquely' human intelligence (or lack of), animal intelligence ... and the meaning behind our metaphors of 'god' or 'love'.

It is a constantly emerging process of relentless self-critique, so forgive me if it takes a while.

I just want wanted to let you know you are one of a handful of inspirations to opening myself up enough to let emergent process speak for itself.

Cheers Tessa,

steve

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Dec 30, 2022·edited Dec 30, 2022Author

Thank you Steven!! You are very kind!! And yes, please share your response (or your essay, which is even better). And surely, we all are in a constant process of evolving and growing our souls...

(But then when someone is aspiring to be a ballerina, it's a whole different game .... just kidding, it was a really funny remark :)

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Dec 30, 2022·edited Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

LOL ... I am glad you got a smile out of that.

Although Borat or Bill Murray will do, with a name like 'Steve Martin' ... I still have a reputation to live up to. 😂

At least for me, among the highlights of your podcasts is your infectious laughter. No strain, nor artifice, nor practiced hook ... your laughter only further confirms your authenticity.

Your essay and your laughter reminded me of a comment by YouTube podcaster Doctor Ramani, what the Cluster B / dark-triad sociopaths hate and fear most is something, by definition, they can never attain. Authenticity.

From every pore, you ooze authenticity, and at least for me, that trumps any hook or trick in the book.

Reminds me of another paraphrase from one of Nietzsche's aphorisms (which long years has probably mangled beyond any academic use). — 'In the end, we only become what we already are. Already were.'

Aside from that sentiment showing the limits of mere logic, it hints that the love you speak of is not quantifiable by time either.

If you haven't seen it yet, check out Jill Bolte Taylor's TED talk — about the effects of her massive left-hemisphere stroke. The first time I saw it, I was not prepared, and she left me in tears.

Among the 'impairments' was a loss of distinction between self and other, a loss of distinction between past-present-future, loss of language, and a new found love for glass-mosaic art and music, and a primal awareness of 'god' or 'love' as metaphor for nature-in-its-entirety. But I'll be referring into her in more detail later.

Power to you Tessa.

As if you couldn't choose to do otherwise, keep being you.

Your fan in Japan

steve

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Thank you Steve!!! xoxo

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

May it be so, Tessa, may it be so.

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Thank you, and hugs!!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Oh, and keep fighting robots!!

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That, I can't help :))

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Oh good!! I am VERY glad to hear that!!!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Aww, thank YOU, and hugs! Many blessings, Tessa Lena, and I wish you a Happy New Year...despite this crazy world!

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Happy New Year to you as well, Bhavana!!! xoxo

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

xoxo

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Thanks, Tessa. Mathew Crawford is one of my favorite truth-tellers. I only discovered him a couple of months ago, but I have learned so much in a short time. The fascists really are within the pale, but I have immense hope. My neighbors, those I meet at the grocery store, on the trails, at the market, are good, decent people. They are imperfect, like all of us, but they are so far removed from the evil ones, I'm certain the evil ones cannot win. They are creating carnage, but karma will come back to bite them, for they are inhuman.

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Thank you Gary!! I agree, Mathew is a solid truth teller. And I also agree that most people are just trying to live their lives. Now, I am in New York, and a lot of people here have seemingly lost their marbles, and still keep masking, and believing in all sorts of fairy tales. I don't know how this will resolve but in the worst case, their grandchildren will tell them that there were wrong (hopefully with love).

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Wow Tessa. I’m nearly speechless over the loving heart instincts breathing out in this post. Thanks so much for articulating what many of us feel is so hard to express. Eloquently! Hugs again. Thank goodness for YOU!

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Thank you, Sabre23!! Your words warm my heart.

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To avoid being "led astray by many false teachers" a person needs to "know God", to listen to spirit. "God is Love", I hear...

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I think you are right!! And also, one cannot get too arrogant or stale about it, the balance is something that needs to be consciously maintained

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The listening needs to be sought out again and again every day.

I'm going to go do that now, but first I'll brush my teeth.

:-D

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:)

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Agreed!

A complimentary aphorism for that is 'Hell is the absence of love.'

Cheers John Day!

steve

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I track so many voices on the health freedom side of things, and yours is one of the best Tessa. Thank you sincerely. Keeping screaming your special flavor of truth from the metaphorical rooftops.

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Thank you Harrm!! It means a lot xo

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Thank you so much for persistence with communicating your messages Tessa. You are a true gift and bright role model.🙏 I value your insights.

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Thank you Kelly!!!! xoxo

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

"Now is the worst time to practice self-elevation at the expense of love." Brilliant. Profound.

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Thank you Gary!!!! xoxo

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Thank you Tessa, let’s send our love to ALL the people on Earth, this action will generate and energize a ghost-artificial spirit- that can counterbalance all the negative ghosts created and daily energized by hate, anger and so on. And our daily loving actions, thoughts, words, will keep energizing this benevolent ghost and pave the way for a triumphal dawn to our new future.

Love and forgiveness is our only hope.

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Thank you!!!!

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Dec 30, 2022·edited Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Toxic energy has been spent on Matthew from a certain chaotic quarter. I hope it stops.

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I hope so, too!! His work is gold, I think!!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

I agree with you totally about Matthew Crawford,how would anyone else feel,if they worked sincerely to get the right statistical info,and their analysis was misused ? He is clearly entitled to say what the true facts are.He should not be attacked because it doesn’t suit some peoples narrative.

He is a real asset in fighting the Globalists and I think honest negotiations to reach agreed figures should be done sooner rather than later.

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Agreed!! The only caveat: the word "asset" has multiple meanings. I know you mean he is valuable, which he is. But I am laughing at how interesting language can be.:)

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Asset🤔mmm You can see how naive I am,yes ,he is valuable to our community ...I am a learner regarding the dialogue of the covert world 😁

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Dec 31, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Though I get Tessa point, I think we have allowed far too many words to be co-opted by the troubled.

At some point we'll run out of words that express what we want to say, if this keeps up!

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

Tessa your armenian song is sublime. you're hitting notes humans are not supposed to reach! and is that a bandura?

i think the "success" of your substack attests to the triumph of real journalism (and philosophy and other fun stuff) over cheap contrived clickbait. the best branding is when we get past the idea of branding which is the worst kind of inside-the-box thinking anyway.

like when you interviewed sasha. she's done a million interviews and you're the only person who mentioned her artwork. this woman is not only a genius investigator but also a phenomenal painter. so i owe you a big thanks for that.

adrienne elise has a theory of a "lower matrix" where the artificial spirits you mention reside, and that they live off our fear and negative emotions. rise above that and we starve those "spirits" into extinction. i know that's a tall order but i think that shutting down the great reset is going to depend on how fast and effectively we can do that.

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Thank you!! You don't know how many years I spent training myself to sing how I wanted (always work in progress), crying my eyes out when it didn't work, etc. It is amazing how things work in life. You really make me smile here.

And Sasha, my God, her art is phenomenal indeed, all I wanted to talk about was her art. :))

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Dec 30, 2022Liked by Tessa Lena

you should invite sasha back for a whole program on her art. i'm serious

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I like this idea!!!!

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