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Many of us who spent time in abusive relationships and extracted ourselves were not fooled and saw the obvious signs of abuse from our government that wanted to "help" us (but only if we behaved) and the experts who pretended to be god-like figures who could do no wrong and so we had to obey them and if we didn't we were bad and needed to be punished. No thank you. I will fight to my last breath rather than return to that cycle of abuse.

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Yes, sister, so true!!

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Warriors!

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Your writing these past few years has been a light to me. Wholehearted thanks for your work, your words, and your beautiful spirit.

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Thank you so much, Meredith!! You are so kind. And I am so happy I was able to help a little. When I say we all need each other, I mean it, we really do, life is so much sweeter when we give each other love! xoxo

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Same here. It has been a very tough time for me. It still continues to be difficult but Tessa’s writings and others here at Substack have been a lifeline when the world of friends and family failed so utterly. Thank you Ms Lena for your cradle of words. 😊

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Thank you, Dollyboy!!! xoxo

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I feel that too, Meredith. Well said. 🙏 Such helpful words from Tessa, and you, Meredith, in expressing gratitude. Ditto!

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Sweet thanks, Kelly! So thankful for this kindred spirit community. :)

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You are so welcome! I'm grateful for that kindred quality too. It feels like a lifeline. :)

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Very well said and I totally agree.

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Thank you, William!!

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These are fascinating times, indeed. I don't know if it is appropriate to say something like that. Because these are so difficult and heinous times also. But I can't help being fascinated by this great unravelling, and sometimes for some good reasons I hope.

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Yes, that is very true!! We are swimming through sewage on our way to paradise. Also, got your email, thank you, talk to you very soon!!

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Yes, I enjoy a lot of the camaraderie but I am so exhausted with the clown show I can’t tell you.

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Don't get me started :)

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would we have chosen NOT to be here for this? seriously? call me crazy but i like to be where the action is.

corollary: i was born in interesting times

darkest hour before the dawn!

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I hear you!! And thank you for your courage. And that tale that you've written, so beautiful.

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"Fear befits those with power for injury" Beatrice to Virgil on why she could descend so fearlessly to limbo and feel no terror - Dante - The Inferno

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Some shifts in consciousness are minor; some, monolithic to nudge human/soul evolution toward potentially higher levels of being. The potential always exists to bed down in what we've already suffered through. Sometimes that prejudices us to evade new challenges. Often it's not a question of what we currently possess in occult knowledge, but regularly reassessing and practicing that which can transcend strict five-sense physicality. Falling into the material world is just our current dilemma of staying harmonized with what we learned in past lives 100% submerged in Spirit. We knew that was temporary, and the time would come to surface into more individual autonomy (co-relying with others, of course).

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The lack of developed individual autonomy at this time is exactly why the world is descending into chaos and disharmony. It is very late in the day - perhaps too late - to understand that group/collective think is why we are descending into the Collective Underworld of Unconsciousness (any well-versed Jungian would be able to explain/elaborate on this point).

The only real antidote to falling further into the lowest levels of materialism would be to consciously, actively and proactively take the paths of Spirituality.

See also the works of Pitirim Sorokin - we are at the end of the Sensate Age - after it will follow a spiritual age. This is a historically verifiable phenomenon.

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Good on ya, Tessa! - Blessings to you for your ongoing, well rooted strength and integrity!. All of this shows signs of a massive growth period for all who take the opportunity to do so...

"By its own fluid, the caterpillar’s body dissolves within the chrysalis to metamorphose into the butterfly. The chaos that has recently emerged on all of Earth, is the ‘fluid’ now dissolving humanity as we know it, within our global ‘chrysalis’. We the ‘Conscious Creatives’, are the imaginal cells building the new evolved Whole World out of the formless solution that chaos continues to make of us, as it expands and envelopes virtually all of humanity. It is time we redirect technology toward the truly organic evolution we so desperately need, arrest our descent to extinction, and manifest a paradigm that transcends our shortcomings."

https://bohobeau.net/2021/01/29/woke-world/

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Thank you, Beau, for your kind words and for the link!!

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I didn't write a substack in 2020, but my days went like this: I would get up in March during the lockdowns, would read the official story, and spend the lion's share of the rest of the day looking for the truth. I found "perspectives of the pandemic" on youtube and also found the Tom Woods show. Tom Woods struck me because he was a libertarian. And although unschooled in what it meant to be a libertarian, I thought of myself as one. Back in the late eighties I just remember the idea of a "keep your hands off" type of government to be ideal.

I have a similar different evolution. Before 2020, I just wanted to be left alone. I still do to a great degree. I ignored all the anti trump BS from 2016-. Before that I ignored the Obama years as much as I could, and before that I ignored the odd wars our country was always getting ourselves into. I could do this because I wasn't those other countries.

The reach of government is never satisfied.

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Good for you, Jimmy!

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Your journey resonates with me and many that I have come to know over the last three-plus years.

My lovely wife and I keep this beautiful quote by our door to remind us to remain steadfast each day.

"Love is patient and kind;

Love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude.

It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;

It does not rejoice at wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth."

The truth of Love will triumph no matter what is thrown at us.

Much love to you.

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As always, thank you, Tessa, for what you write with such purity of Heart. Much of your experience during the past 3.5 years and before helps me understand my own better. After losing my father when he was 43 and I was 21 my life took a hard left turn into experimentation, edginess, rebellion. Quite a change from the good girl raised in a very protective religious atmosphere. So a long walk on the wild side, learning hard lessons along the way. There was a time when I wanted to help a lost soul overcome addiction but lost myself and a substantial amount of money in the effort. Another time I naively got very close to another man who eventually stalked me while carrying a loaded gun. The resulting trauma caused a level of PTSD I had never experienced before. However, I was learning how to maintain a calm Warrior's Heart in the midst of madness. Then in 2020, when the world began to shift and became the Upside Down I believe it was much easier for me to question that madness, just as it was for you and other Freedom Fighters. In 2019 I had gotten into a heated argument with someone whose Holy Grail was vaccines. In 2020 I could not mention to my son-in-law the possibility that masks were useless and being used to intimidate and subdue. So, like you, I backed off and decided to manage my own energy as the anger was too toxic. So, yes, what we have been through the last 3.5 years has helped those of us who were ready solidify our ability to choose Courage over Fear as our guide. May many more awaken and make that choice.

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Oh my dear, I am so sorry you had to go through so much suffering, it sound like you went through it like iron goes through fire, and now you are strong and shiny!!! Sending you many hugs!!!

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I must say that I find it both deeply saddening, as well as rather mind-bending, that most of my closest family and friends still haven't been able to dig themselves out of the covid propaganda indoctrination enough to even begin to reflect on what has happened in any objective fashion. So I hear more stories of "I just got my booster and I feel like shit" and/or "damn - I've got covid again" - with apparently no inclination whatsoever to know anything beyond what NPR or other MSM have to tell them about "why" this might be happening - combined with offense that I might suggest "off label" explanations that haven't been "Fauci approved."

I can't help but see a deep propaganda connection between the seemingly disparate covid propaganda operation and the institutional capture and imposition across the West of both Critical Race Theory and Gender-Ideology. At a time when we MOST need to come together - we are being MOST ENCOURAGED by all Western institutional structures to distrust each other, distrust our own knowledge base, and distrust our own eyes and our own common sense. Surely this is no coincidence.

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I hear you, Gary, I hear you!! There is a lot of effort put into disconnecting people from their gut and their logic. It is very tough, I treat it as an exercise in strength and love. It is more productive and more bearable this way. Hugs!!

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During Trump’s presidency Fauci said there’d be a pandemic. That’s all the fishiness anyone should need. Now, it is generally accepted the pandemic was not naturally occurring. If someone requires more evidence of fishiness they are purposefully in denial.

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Yep. They (the "healthcare" mob, for the lack of a better term) have been beating the pandemic drum for a long time, trying to increase their perceived value and funding, and to help their industry buddies to make big bucks. I remember that video. Personally, I thought it was generic, not like a big giveaway of something special. But it was very indicative of their general intention to make a big pandemic (or a perception of one) reality and accomplish all their aforementioned goals. A dishonest bunch, without a doubt!!!

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I’d have thought it a generic statement too had Fauci not given a timeline. Psychopaths alway trip up via excessive hubris.

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I think (a guess) that was mostly to ensure he wouldn't even think of not going ahead with their agendas. After all, they tried to pull one off with the swine flu, it's just that the damage wasn't impressive enough. Who knows what motivated him. But we know how it played out!

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Birds of a feather - we have both been to prison by the dishonesty of others, in my case for "money".

We each have a preset set of conditions by which we live our lives and how others see us and after a while we become set in that "way" because we are comfortable in it and when people see us, they form an opinion, either positive or negative about the way we present ourselves - like a tag if you like.

BUT if you go somewhere where nobody knows you and you step outside the comfort zone and pretend to be someone else completely different to the who you were, in this your new other life, then the new people amongst whom you mix, will see you completely differently and liaise with you in completely different ways, because they don't know any different that the new you, is not the old you and that previously, you presented yourself very differently.

When I was 24, I traveled half way around the world to a new life, to do just that (A Tiger), without realizing that all I had to do was go somewhere where nobody knew me and I could pretend to be anyone I wanted and nobody would ever know who I really was, or had been for most of my life (A Mouse) as must be evident in the way I write now and express myself.

As Shakespeare said "All the world's a stage and all the men and women merely players, they have their exits and entrances" and this my latest "new me" is my best one yet, about the 10th transformation, as I have progressed through my life playing the parts I had to, to be who I wanted eventually, to become.

If you are happy living in the cupboard of life, hidden away from the multitude of opportunities that could await you, as I once was, then there is nothing you, or anyone else can do, to change that, is there?

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You are a brave soul, Christine! And yes, I've done that traveling thing, too. I hear you. :)) Hugs!!

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without you and Kevin those protests would have been all anger all the time!lol

So thank you for your service!

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Thank YOU!!!! You've been leading the way with love all through this!

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Thanks for this, dear Tessa.

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Thank you, Transcriber B!! Hugs

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