Beautiful. It is very hard to accept that the people who are letting us down are sincere. My mind wants to be outraged because I would never treat them from the consciousness they are coming from. It is sad and painful to witness projection of their trauma and pain onto us. You are correct, staying in the heart guides our way through. Heart is the only bridge I know of to those who are both unconscious and traumatized. Thanks for sharing your heart, commitment and insight during very challenging times.
Ah, Tessa. Your voice is so haunting and unique, particularly in its lower register. So much passion! And your words describe *exactly* the attitude this world requires from us. You are a shining light in this world.
'The situation that I personally find the hardest is when the act of being let down is real, and the person or people who did it are sincere. Not enemies, not people with bad intentions, just people whose vulnerability of character has expressed itself in this way.'
THIS is the precise combination of words & thoughts I have never exactly assembled but definitely always wanted to express. Thank you for this beautifully written piece today. Trauma rhymes with drama, and people get addicted to both as a means of gaining what they perceive as positive attention and other kinds of ego payoffs, but they both lead to misery in the end because that's what addictions do.
Excellent share. Everything about this article ignites warmth in my heart space.
I have been on a “healing” journey since 2018. I had a lot of bad things happen to me in my childhood and unfortunately wasn’t provided with the resources to cope with any of it.
I avoided working through my pain by abusing drugs and alcohol for 20 years which eventually manifested itself into multiple major depressive episodes in my 30’s.
I came to a crossroads. Either work through it or die miserably (suicide). I made the commitment to put my health and wellbeing first and have not looked back since.
I had no idea how powerful I was. I hadn’t even given myself a chance. I had no choice but to question everything I had learned and believed up to that point. My perception of the world, every relationship I had, every single memory had been tainted by my victimhood.
I wish everyone out there the courage and strength to battle through their demons. You are worth it!
The truth is that we are each our own worst enemy and our greatest ally. Choose wisely.
Which religion? Doesn't matter. They are either all true or none of them are.
Personally, as I'm not religious nor atheist, I don't care about which one is true - if any - because none of them amount to the worth of even one potatoe.
"the notion of a jealous, discriminating God is to this day the biggest psyop in the entire history of human kind, and COVID is a baby scam comparing to that scam." a lifetime of slavery for the promise of the hereafter worked like a charm for centuries. now yuval harari has a new religion for us.
as the cabal knows better than anyone, trauma is the most effective conditioning. i published this story in october 2020 and i think it's held up pretty well:
Once upon a time in Punjab, five elephant drivers were leading their caravan down a dusty road. The elephants were loaded down with spices and other goods. When they reached a pond by the side of the road, the drivers pulled off to stretch their legs, refill their canteens, smoke some weed and let the elephants have a drink.
Each driver dismounted and then attached a chain to the shackle on the rear leg of the elephant he’d been riding. The drivers then attached the end of the chains to saplings growing along the banks of the pond.
See, when young elephants are trained, each is first shackled to a big tree. In ancient times, elephant trainers discovered that the animals become so conditioned to being immobilized by a shackle and chain that it isn’t long before they can be shackled to even a small bush, and they will still remain there until the trainer unleashes them.
On this day, the first elephant in line was annoyed by a fly buzzing behind him. He tried flicking the fly away with his tail, but his tail couldn’t reach it. So the elephant tried swinging his trunk around to swat the fly. Standing on the short slope down to the pond, the elephant lost his balance. To avoid falling into the water, he reflexively shifted his back foot, which had been loosely chained to a sapling.
Noticing that his foot, still attached to the chain, had snapped the sapling in two, the elephant sauntered up onto the road. Joyously dragging the chain behind him, he galumphed up to the second elephant, swung his trunk and smacked him on the ass.
Startled, the second elephant jumped forward, also snapping the sapling that held him.
Meanwhile, the elephant drivers had busied themselves packing a bowl and passing it around. Since they were so high, they didn’t notice what the elephants were doing until the fifth elephant pulled away from the pond and joined the others as they moved down the road, still with the spices and other goods on their backs.
“Hey, you come back here,” the first driver yelled, but it was too late. An elephant can reach speeds of up to twenty-five miles an hour, whereas a human can only hit about twenty, and not for more than a few seconds at a time. The drivers watched, dumbstruck, as the animals lumbered into the distance.
When the elephants reached the next town, they looked for any of their fellow species who’d been shackled, and then swatted them on the ass. Then the whole group, all dragging their chains behind them, moved on to another town further down the road. And so it was that all the elephants of Punjab became free.
Thanks for another inspirational message Tessa. Teaching by example instead of by theory is so effective and that is why our thoughts, our words and our actions should be grounded in love. I really appreciate and always look forward to you so graciously sharing your wisdom. xoxo
Thank you for sharing your beliefs. Staying attached to my heart and feelings of love - sometimes I find it very hard. When people I used to love and cherish are sincere in their absolute and categoric refusal to talk about anything that goes against their induced belief about covid, the Ukraine war, the human made global warming scam, whatever we are ordered to hold as the only true and politically correct opinions. Any utterance of doubt or proposition of another theorie is hammered. 'the media tell the truth!' I am not sure whether I am traumatized, I feel isolated and treated like a bom that might go off any minute now. And that makes me very angry and scornful. Even though I do not like to feel that way....
"...getting too serious about one’s trauma is not good. The best is to cry to the necessary degree, then take a broom, and sweep the pain out."
As a man (yes, man! I'm not on any 'gender spectrum'), I have often wondered if crying serves some biological purpose (in addition to a spiritual one). If maybe there's some built-up toxins inside us that need to be released through our tears. I've wondered if that's part of the reason we feel a little better after crying. Just a thought.
You are brilliant and what touches me deeply besides your amazing and haunting song, is your description of PTSD, which describes its essence so accurately. Each time we go back to our trauma we reexperience it and re-traumatize our present NOW as if it were happening NOW!! Thus a focus shift to positivity, strength and beauti must occur as the cure needed for a new and glorious life!!
Beautiful. It is very hard to accept that the people who are letting us down are sincere. My mind wants to be outraged because I would never treat them from the consciousness they are coming from. It is sad and painful to witness projection of their trauma and pain onto us. You are correct, staying in the heart guides our way through. Heart is the only bridge I know of to those who are both unconscious and traumatized. Thanks for sharing your heart, commitment and insight during very challenging times.
Ah, Tessa. Your voice is so haunting and unique, particularly in its lower register. So much passion! And your words describe *exactly* the attitude this world requires from us. You are a shining light in this world.
leaving trauma behind is great advice
i feel too, that we have to be better teachers
our students have taken unsavoury paths
we must commit to do a better job of redirecting the countless lost souls towards a more joyful existence
'The situation that I personally find the hardest is when the act of being let down is real, and the person or people who did it are sincere. Not enemies, not people with bad intentions, just people whose vulnerability of character has expressed itself in this way.'
THIS is the precise combination of words & thoughts I have never exactly assembled but definitely always wanted to express. Thank you for this beautifully written piece today. Trauma rhymes with drama, and people get addicted to both as a means of gaining what they perceive as positive attention and other kinds of ego payoffs, but they both lead to misery in the end because that's what addictions do.
Excellent share. Everything about this article ignites warmth in my heart space.
I have been on a “healing” journey since 2018. I had a lot of bad things happen to me in my childhood and unfortunately wasn’t provided with the resources to cope with any of it.
I avoided working through my pain by abusing drugs and alcohol for 20 years which eventually manifested itself into multiple major depressive episodes in my 30’s.
I came to a crossroads. Either work through it or die miserably (suicide). I made the commitment to put my health and wellbeing first and have not looked back since.
I had no idea how powerful I was. I hadn’t even given myself a chance. I had no choice but to question everything I had learned and believed up to that point. My perception of the world, every relationship I had, every single memory had been tainted by my victimhood.
I wish everyone out there the courage and strength to battle through their demons. You are worth it!
The truth is that we are each our own worst enemy and our greatest ally. Choose wisely.
A religious colleague phrased it thusly:
"God(s) do not want suffering"
Which religion? Doesn't matter. They are either all true or none of them are.
Personally, as I'm not religious nor atheist, I don't care about which one is true - if any - because none of them amount to the worth of even one potatoe.
Why?
When you starve, ask again.
Wonderful to hear a new song. I needed to hear this. Thank you. ❤️
"the notion of a jealous, discriminating God is to this day the biggest psyop in the entire history of human kind, and COVID is a baby scam comparing to that scam." a lifetime of slavery for the promise of the hereafter worked like a charm for centuries. now yuval harari has a new religion for us.
as the cabal knows better than anyone, trauma is the most effective conditioning. i published this story in october 2020 and i think it's held up pretty well:
Once upon a time in Punjab, five elephant drivers were leading their caravan down a dusty road. The elephants were loaded down with spices and other goods. When they reached a pond by the side of the road, the drivers pulled off to stretch their legs, refill their canteens, smoke some weed and let the elephants have a drink.
Each driver dismounted and then attached a chain to the shackle on the rear leg of the elephant he’d been riding. The drivers then attached the end of the chains to saplings growing along the banks of the pond.
See, when young elephants are trained, each is first shackled to a big tree. In ancient times, elephant trainers discovered that the animals become so conditioned to being immobilized by a shackle and chain that it isn’t long before they can be shackled to even a small bush, and they will still remain there until the trainer unleashes them.
On this day, the first elephant in line was annoyed by a fly buzzing behind him. He tried flicking the fly away with his tail, but his tail couldn’t reach it. So the elephant tried swinging his trunk around to swat the fly. Standing on the short slope down to the pond, the elephant lost his balance. To avoid falling into the water, he reflexively shifted his back foot, which had been loosely chained to a sapling.
Noticing that his foot, still attached to the chain, had snapped the sapling in two, the elephant sauntered up onto the road. Joyously dragging the chain behind him, he galumphed up to the second elephant, swung his trunk and smacked him on the ass.
Startled, the second elephant jumped forward, also snapping the sapling that held him.
Meanwhile, the elephant drivers had busied themselves packing a bowl and passing it around. Since they were so high, they didn’t notice what the elephants were doing until the fifth elephant pulled away from the pond and joined the others as they moved down the road, still with the spices and other goods on their backs.
“Hey, you come back here,” the first driver yelled, but it was too late. An elephant can reach speeds of up to twenty-five miles an hour, whereas a human can only hit about twenty, and not for more than a few seconds at a time. The drivers watched, dumbstruck, as the animals lumbered into the distance.
When the elephants reached the next town, they looked for any of their fellow species who’d been shackled, and then swatted them on the ass. Then the whole group, all dragging their chains behind them, moved on to another town further down the road. And so it was that all the elephants of Punjab became free.
Thanks for another inspirational message Tessa. Teaching by example instead of by theory is so effective and that is why our thoughts, our words and our actions should be grounded in love. I really appreciate and always look forward to you so graciously sharing your wisdom. xoxo
Thank you for sharing your beliefs. Staying attached to my heart and feelings of love - sometimes I find it very hard. When people I used to love and cherish are sincere in their absolute and categoric refusal to talk about anything that goes against their induced belief about covid, the Ukraine war, the human made global warming scam, whatever we are ordered to hold as the only true and politically correct opinions. Any utterance of doubt or proposition of another theorie is hammered. 'the media tell the truth!' I am not sure whether I am traumatized, I feel isolated and treated like a bom that might go off any minute now. And that makes me very angry and scornful. Even though I do not like to feel that way....
Needed to hear your words❤️❤️❤️
It often helps to write about trauma. I enjoy reading your perspectives, Tessa. Thank you. 💜
Thank you for sharing your wisdom and experience Tessa.
"...getting too serious about one’s trauma is not good. The best is to cry to the necessary degree, then take a broom, and sweep the pain out."
As a man (yes, man! I'm not on any 'gender spectrum'), I have often wondered if crying serves some biological purpose (in addition to a spiritual one). If maybe there's some built-up toxins inside us that need to be released through our tears. I've wondered if that's part of the reason we feel a little better after crying. Just a thought.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
You are brilliant and what touches me deeply besides your amazing and haunting song, is your description of PTSD, which describes its essence so accurately. Each time we go back to our trauma we reexperience it and re-traumatize our present NOW as if it were happening NOW!! Thus a focus shift to positivity, strength and beauti must occur as the cure needed for a new and glorious life!!
Very useful, beautiful Tessa! Thank you!!! You are such an inspiration...